Post Meridiem

Post Meridiem is an unreliable memoir of events that occurred in Los Angeles County between June and September 2009. From the bewildering cast of a state-run psychiatric hospital to the horrific exhibits of the Museum of the Morbid, Dan Lauer searches for comfort and solace from a severe depression-driven psychotic break from reality in all the wrong places. Despite the harsh realities of most of the situations and the explicit descriptions of suicidal ideation, major depression, psychotic hallucinations, delusional thinking, and general despair, remember: there’s no reason this can’t be funny.

Cover illustration by Caitlin Hope Crawford.

“And now:

I need to end it already. This is becoming not worth it anymore. No one would really care anyway. Right? It’s not about them. Fuck them! What have they ever done for me? I was so alone here. I’m so tired. No human should have to suffer through this. Not ever. I couldn’t decide if I’m very complicated or very simple. Very smart or very stupid. Very shallow or very deep. I didn’t think I was any of those things and I felt like all of them at once. I couldn’t stand my own mind. I was at war with myself.

I was not imagining things. The world had gone insane. I was perfectly fine.”

- From POST MERIDIEM

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I want as many people to experience Post Meridiem as possible, hence the free audiobook. However, contributions are more than welcome and will go towards paying for hosting and bandwidth, recouping fees, and financing some of the projects I am currently working on.

AUDIOBOOK EPISODES

Select the images below to listen to each episode directly in Spotify. You can also listen to each episode in your favorite podcast client as they are released. Here are direct links to a few:

PROLOGUE: IN THE LAND OF THE LOTUS EATERS

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PART 1: PSYCHOSIS | PART 2: DEPRESSION

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Part 1: Psychosis - Chapters 1-5

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Part 1: Psychosis - Chapters 6-10

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Part 2: Depression - Chapters 1-7

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Part 2: Depression - Chapters 8-13

PART 3: ANXIETY | PART 4: ABSURDITY

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Third Part: Anxiety - Chapters 1-5

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Part 3: Anxiety - Chapters 6-10

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Part 4: Absurdity - Chapters 1-4

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Part 4: Absurdity - Chapters 5-NULL

BUY THE BOOK

Post Meridiem is available for purchase (pre-order starting 7/21) as a beautiful ebook from Amazon for $4.99 in all territories. It is also a KINDLE UNLIMITED BOOK

The ebook version of Post Meridiem includes illustrations, content, and even an additional Fifth Part not included in the free audiobook version.

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ABOUT THE AUTHOR

Dan Lauer’s work has appeared in “The Ampersand Review,” “Ghost Parachute: A Literary Magazine,” on “The Drunken Odyssey with John King” podcast, and at the “There Will Be Words” live reading events in Orlando, FL. He writes, produces, and hosts various podcasts, which can be found and heard via www.wetworkmedia.com.

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